Autism always bites back

Mia is finished july provision and it went really well for her this yr. she loved it. She got to avail of having special needs assistants there all the time. She doesn't have one usually. It was great to see her being comfortable. She bounced into the autism unit everyday chatting away to her friends, real friends that understand her and don't think she's odd or to loud. They're all so excepting of each other is so lovely to see them all be happy. Mias anxiety was quite low which was great. You'd pass the parents dropping their kids of and the smile you would give each other said so much you understood each other and their kids. No judgment. Just acceptance. I felt so relaxed Mia being there. When you have a child like Mia you worry 24/7. It becomes normal to be that way. So a break was great. Some days you wouldn't even see the autism side as much as we would normally. I decided to plan something for August as I knew it was gonna be a long month for Mia and us. Ava had started a summer activities camp on Mondays and Fridays. I didn't want her feeling left out as Mia was at July provision. She was so upset the first day going in but ten mins after I left she was playing away making friends. That's Ava all over. Shy at first but goes with the flow. I wanted her to have friends to play with. She loved it and I decided to put Mia in too starting Monday just gone.

She was adamant she would not go. I tried to explain it be fun and Ava be there to help her out. My mini minder I call Ava. She was so caring bless her holding Mia's hand and telling her what they do. Mia would not look at anyone and hide behind me. She was so anxious she had stomach pains. There it was. The aspergers biting back. I sent her in and hoped for the best. She thought it was to loud and to many people. It was a huge change from July provision. When I went to pick them up the girls said Mia was okay but did struggle. They though the day might be to long for her and maybe pick her up earlier. It wasn't anything major but my heart went out to her. She couldn't handle one day in a 'normal setting'. It's at things like this I feel my saddest for her. Ava settled so quick yet Mia was unsettled all week from that. Mia is a fighter though. She was adamant to go back. She was all excited going in this morning but when we got there and all the other kids just said bye to their parents Mia stood at the door squeezing the life out of my hand. She took a little step forward and I told her she be fine and I'd be back to collect her. She stayed at the door as I left. She's determined to not let anxiety rule her days she amazes me at times. Last yr she would have run out that door screaming. She's come a long way. We all have. But sometimes aspergers appears to snap you into reality when all u want for u and your kids is a normal day.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

update on the aspergers journey

Being a good mom is good enough

Autism acceptance and guidance