Coach - 15 years on
On Saturday it will be 15years since our dad went to work and never came home again. the 19th of May is the exact date our whole world came crashing down around us. Its a date I dread. 15 years is such a long time and yet in so many ways that day feels like yesterday. When you loose someone so close to you it changes you as a person. You never stay the same. Grief changes everything about you, your life, the people around you. You build a new world. It takes years to build that new world. Ask my husband and he will tell you it is only now that I can finally start to speak about my memories with my dad. If I do speak it will only be a for a short while and I might shut off again it is so painful. His death has had such a profound affect on me. More of an affect than I knew. I was so busy in the early years of his death that I didn't allow myself to grieve properly. It was far to painful and to sad. I cried and hurt so much that I ran from it. When I started to have my own family